Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway, A Glimpse Into My Soul

I put out a video back in September on the energy of that months Full Moon, just like I always do.

Later on that week I received an email from an amazing woman and client that works in media.  She also hosts ‘Women in Business’ network/marketing events.

She suggested it would be a great idea for me to come and be the presenter for the 10/29 event.

I checked my calendar to make sure I was available, and then without any hesitation I said “absolutely, I would love that”.

We discussed what I would talk about as the main topic and it clicked- my presentation would be “How to use your astrological blueprint to fuel your passion & follow your dreams”.

At this point allow me to share with you, when it comes to public speaking?  I am fine one-on-one and in small groups but a large audience freaks. me. out.

As extroverted and open as I can and may be I am also very shy and truly dislike being the center of attention.  In fact, it gives me anxiety, people watching me.

So, I say yes anyway.  I find out this event is going to potentially be 50-60 women there as a means of advertising and networking.

Oddly, I was calm about this.  I was going to do this!  Besides, I would be speaking about my passion, astrology!  I got this, right?

I made my outline, the ladies created slides for me as a point of reference, and then it was 10/29.

I decided to wear Red as it was Tuesday, planetary MARS day (I know I’m an astro- nerd).

Besides, planet Mars represents passion and power, as does the color red.  What other way to boost your confidence, right?  Any little bit helps when you’re nervous. 😉

Long story short: I did it.

I centered myself, got up there and was me.

Something I always reflect upon as I go through my every day, especially if I am hit with doubt, shame or fear about anything: I will tell myself :

I kept this in mind leading up to and during the presentation.

I did not overthink it as I always do.  I just got up there and spoke freely as i would with a group of friends.  No filter.

As I began to tell my story of how I came to do this work full-time, I broke down a little and cried.  I guess I never really discuss this, and it got me emotional to go back to that time and really feel it.

*If you would like to skip ahead scroll to the end to watch the video clip of the presentation.

My natural instinct was to apologize.

How embarrassing!  I am choking up in front of all of these ladies but worse than that? I’m the presenter.  Crying in front of others I can handle, but this was another level.

But an amazing thing happened.

As I apologized and stopped for a moment to collect myself- this  beautiful audience of women applauded me, they cheered me on.

I heard “cry you’re human, let it fly”, and all sorts of other inspirational comments.

After the presentation as I walked around the room briefly chatting with the women several of them told me:

“I’m so happy I came tonight”.

“I can tell you are genuine and love what you do”.

“That was so authentic”.

“You are inspirational”‘

I had several realizations that evening and the days after the event.

1). We are human, not super-human.   We are not required or expected to always hold it together,  and every now and then it is necessary to ‘lose it’ a little

This is not weak, but rather humbling and genuine.

2).  Even when you feel like what you do does not matter?  Keep going because you never know who you are inspiring.

I will admit that there are times where I feel like what I do does not truly matter or make a difference.

The last time I had a bout of this and was feeling very low, right as I was hanging up with a regular client she said to me:

“Lisa I feel like you need to know how important you are to me.  Even though I have never met you in person, you have been a part of my journey since day one and I don’t know what I would do without you”.

Her words snapped me out of my pity-party and shifted me.

3). All of us matter and we all deserve to be heard.

This is the reason I always try and acknowledge everybody.

The gas station attendant, the waitress, the bartender, the accountant.  Does not matter who they are as I go about my every day I recognize that we all have a story, a struggle.

No matter what type of face we present to the world?  There is often much more going on beneath the surface and one kind word or gesture can really mean more to someone than we will ever know.

My work consists of creating a safe space for others where they can feel heard, supported and seen….I guess sometimes I forget that I need that too!

I realized that the main reason I got so emotional during my presentation was because I never really acknowledged the tremendous soul growth that has occurred for me over the past four years.

4). Your passion and your purpose are always uniquely linked, whether you recognize this or not.

I am an old soul.

Since childhood, I was told I was wise beyond my years and I felt that way too.  Not in the form of book-smart, but more in the form of ‘ soul smart’.  I knew I just  ‘got things’ on a much deeper level and still do.

I have always loved to help others, to listen and give advice.  I am now able to do this naturally through my readings.

This satisfies the caretaker and counselor in me so much so,  that I am contemplating furthering my education for counseling.

I never thought I would be able to turn this into my lifes work, and even with its challenges and hard times?  I would not change a thing because I love what I do and I genuinely love helping others.

 5). Stay true to yourself and you will find your tribe.  The path will become more clear.

Do at least one thing daily/weekly that you are passionate about.  Whether it’s cooking, gardening, painting, dancing or singing.

If you enjoy it, find a way to incorporate it into your life.

It is true that when you engage in something(s) that are enjoyable, your energy naturally opens up and you are able to receive.

Remember, what you do and who you are?  Two completely different things.

Recently, I was at a party and I struck up a conversation with a very nice woman.  I did not ask what she did for a living, but she volunteered that she was a lawyer.

After she said that, I responded with “but who are you”?

She looked at me and the best word I can use to describe it is baffled.  She did not even know how to respond

I waited and then she began to tell me about her passion for collecting crystals, and her (closet) love of astrology of all things.

At this point, I had not offered up much about me and so she asked: “do you believe in astrology”?

I laughed and said to her : “you’re talking to the right woman”! 

We proceeded to speak for a solid hour and I armed her with resources to study more into astrology.

Before we exchanged cards and goodbyes,  a huge smile spread across her face and she said “I like you Lisa , you make me think”.

What that really meant was that she felt free to express herself, who she was not what she does.

At some point, your passion might just become your purpose, or at least you will be closer to living it out that way.

Below is a short clip from the presentation.

Watch the full video below.

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✌️ & ❤️

Lisa

Much Love,

Lisa

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